Shooting Stars
This park is very special. The people who know it
well feel proprietary toward its mountains, scattered lakes, and
glaciers. Perhaps it is the arrangement of the land, an unsurpassed
concentration of American wilderness. Time and again I have thought, as
I regarded some aspect of this country, yes, this is exactly
rightalmost, it would seem, as if some magic existed that
could translate thought and emotion into rock and bark.
Glacier remains largely unexploited, bearing still
the aspect of the Earth the Indians knew for 500 generationsa land
where it is yet possible to feel a sense of discovery, sense that a
single man matters. On too many mountains, man has tarnished whatever he
has touched; but here the land has shed, as a fir sloughs snow, a long
succession of traders, trappers, explorers, hunters, surveyors,
prospectors, loggers, settlers, and tourists.
You may walk the same trail a dozen times and not
tire of the view. I have given up wondering why. I know only that these
are mountains a man might grow old with, and that mountain-fever never
diminishes but only changes its look, as a forest does over many
years.
Repeatedly I have noticed that this park creates an
instant bond between strangers. A certain pause intrudes at the first
mention of Glacier National Park, and a look of distance comes, as Red
Eagle becomes real again, or the wind at Firebrand is remembered, or the
flowers of Fifty-Mountain converge once more upon the senses.
Never are we quenched. If a goshawk rushes past,
straining upward with its squirming load of ground squirrel, forever
afterward our blood demands more. The sight of a wolverine running is
not enough. Nor the magnificent assemblage of bald eagles feasting on
November salmon. More days of this: mountain goats leaping impossible
ledges, wave tracks from a beaver reaching out on dawn water. There are
messages here, loud as kingfishers. The land has languages, stories to
tell.
But in wilderness there is no moral, save that it
must continue. For all our probings and plottings we discover no
adequate interpretation of the forces we find swirling about us. A larch
you must touch to know; your neck must feel the ache of too much looking
up. Watch its treepoint pirouette. Then, looking back at the world
level, you will find that you have lost all answers. We have learned the
art of building bridges, cataloging plants, predicting what a shrew
might do. Of the essential mystery, we know nothing.
For nature assigns no "roles" to its creatures; there
is no "reason" for a forest fire, which burns mightily but with no
intent. Life's only "purpose" is the feeding of life, and the beauty we
see therein is but its lack of guarantee: for the chipmunk and the
weasel, and the man who measures his life to theirs, no assurance of
long days and tempered seasons, abundant seeds, ample meat. In
wilderness there is mystery yet, unsimplified, not reduced, resplendent
and immense.
Whatever the conclusion of this planet, however many
the acts to follow in this consuming dramamountains coming up,
mountains going down, forests, lakes, and seas skimming past like
wind-driven scud clouds before a stormat least in the scant shadow
of this present age there is an achievement of sorts. For now, with this
creature man, such things as mountains can be loved. And men have
memories to fill.
Tomorrow I will look for shooting starspurple
spring flowers that point their fire down, always down toward the center
of the Earth, as if to give in their brief term beneath the sun a
tribute to this most excellent mystery.
Today I can say nothing more, neck-sore now from
looking at larchtops swaying with the wind of this splendid morning.
Shooting star.
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